Sleet, Snow, Wind...

Hello world! Wow...my deepest apologies to all of you who actually read this thing...b/c I have done terrible at keeping it updated....and not only that, I left my last posting with a rather sour venting, which all of you are still responding to even though life has moved on since then.

First, my title.....well, Winter is here early this year....hopefully not to stay just yet, but it definately is the shocking reminder of the change in seasons.

Other updates: life is going GREAT!..school is coming along and I finally have enough motivation to keep myself moving along...and actually get somewhat ahead. (bonus!) I'm still unemployed, but the time off has been nice (seeing as though I never really had much of a break during the summer,etc..) BUT, my parents found themselves new wheels, which means that I also have another set of wheels!!! (another bonus!....though it means I need to start looking for work again) This past weekend I came home for the evening...it was suppose to be low key, but than "SURPRISE"...ya that's right...my parent's remembered their events of equality amongst my siblings and I, and my turn for a surprise bday finally came! Good times! Thanks again for all who came out..it was a blast..and also good just to see everyone again, especially with living out in dorm.

Then for the MUCH needed update/clarification: sorry for the bitterness in my previous posting, but boys really CAN suck at times!...but things are better now, and definately working their way up hill....I think we're working our way off the fence, which is always good. And either way, more friends are always good. mmm...steak and PETRA tickets are good stuff :)

As this blog suggests, and will most definately exemplify, this 'adventure of life' takes us all through the various highs and lows of life. It never fails to keep us on the balls of our feets, and never ceases to remind us of the thankfulness we ouught to have. So on that note, life is also slowly improving on the spiritual level of things, which I'm very greatful for. Pride is a funny thing, and it knows how to keep us from falling down on our knees and coming before the cross as we ought to. It likes to keep us in a mindset of lies....that we can actually make it through this life merely on our own strength, and that other people don't need to be involved. Well folks, that's where I went wrong. Last year I went through an entire year of spiritual drouhgt, that put my life in a downward spiral. Yet when I finally found myself in a church again, and surrounded by Christians, I kept myself from being real with these folks. I didn't want to admit to people that I was, more or less, spiritually dead! Afterall I've been a Christian for at least 6 years now, and been through 4 years of a Christian HS, and 2 years of Bible college.....so to find myself in such a state is unheard of, right? WRONG! It's so incredibly easy to feel alone in this big world, and to therefore feel that you have to work through everything on your own..but that's yet another lie! B/c God will never leave your side, and we always judge ourselves more than any other person will. SO....why not just be REAL! Face life for what it is, when it is, where it is. That's life right? .. the adventure.....never ceasing to surprise you. So now, back in Bible College, having xian friends surround me, and out on my own...life is coming together again. The real me is resurfacing (even if I'm still learning just what that entails)...JUST be YOURSELF! Forget what others think, say or do. Be REAL!

Blah..there's my rant for the day..hope it makes sense to at least some of you. If not...write away and I'll see if I can elaborate some more..b/c I'm sure I can..I'm just full of words!

Life is GrEaT!!!...Keep Praising God....yes, even if it is cold and snowing ;)


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