And so life continues....this adventure we're on.....there are mountains, there are valleys...and sometimes there are even plains. Nevertheless we are reminded that everything under the sun happens for a reason; trials, joys, pains, goodness....all of it for a reason. And so we find strength in this; in a God who never changes nor leaves. Who stands by/with us through the thick and the thin; all joys and all sorrows. We are reminded whom we truly ought to place our trust in, and that man, regardless, will always fail us.
This has been a long week; stressful with the busyness of school (ie. papers, and exams...is it really that time already!?!) And then it ends with a heavy heart; lots to think about and evaluate. I am forced to face the reality that I have completely withdrawn my trust in God. I have more than enough head knowledge to know this and more. To know where I ought to be with God and what I ought to be doing. But as the saying goes, I do what I want not, and do not do what I want. Yes the hypocrits we all are, or is it merely the fallibilty of humanity? Stuborn, yes? trying to living on my own strength, yes? And then there's the thought that all good things must come to an end; what goes up, must come down. Well that has also been the story of my life this week. Sometimes life brings new beginnings, other times it brings old things to an end. (or is it all a progression of new beginnings?)
Change is difficult. Letting go is harder. Yet we're constantly reminded that it's what we ought to do. We ought to humble ourselves and release the control; surrender. On our own strength we are NOTHING, but in Christ Jesus we can do all things. so the question of the day....how do we begin to trust again?..others?, self? God?....how do we not allow the pain of past failures to hinder us in trusting?
BUT with all said and done, I conclude that God is a good God and his name is to forever be praised! I say this not on my own strength; for on my own I'd be cursing, blaming, and asking why. But tonight, and hopefully forever more, I find rest in Christ. That I have a God who loves me, surrounds me, and will NEVER fail me.
And to that I say AMEN and goodnight!
2 comments:
Wow... talk about how I've been feeling. You know my schooling situation. I am completely relying on myself to be getting this to work. I've come to realize all I'm doing is pushing out God so I can get to God. That's really dumb. Reading all the things you post and seeing how you're doing without Tims reminds me of... too many things to mention. Basically all of the above in one word... thanks. Take care and God bless.
wow, i never realized what a great writer you are. What you wrote really encouraged me. I will be praying for you!
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