Life has most definately been keeping me busy over the past month. For the most part my time has been consumed by work, and my weekly volunteering at the Winnipeg Adult ESL Centre. Work has thankfully picked up since I last wrote...the wonders of month end around a business office. It has also worked to my benefit that I pick-up on new things quite easily. In fact, it has been a rather frightening experience, when I've been asked to teach tasks to others in the office who have been there for over 4yrs. This was suppose to be my last week working at Broadway, which in some was I wish were the case, but I'm thankful that they've decided to extend my contract for at least the next week. Now, well this job has by far not been the worst place to work, it is definately not somewhere I'd desire to work any longer than I have to.
On that note, I truly feel that I've been failing myself, God, others,etc.. as a Christian. Those I work with are far from Christian in both their speech and actions, which I refuse to hold against them (they are who they are,etc..), yet I find that by the end of the day I'm drained. I can only handle so much of their negativity, foul language, and despair. I try to be encouraging an uplifting, but after a while it's exhausting. And it's frustrating, b/c they're always complaining about being behind/overloaded with work,etc.. yet they some how still manage to take a 15min smoke break EVERY hour!!!..It's insane. But back to my initial thought...it's so easy to encourage others when they're feeling discouraged about their inadequate witness, but then you find yourself in a simiiar situation, and all you want to do is hide from the fact. I'm ashamed of how easily I still manage to cave into the attitude of those around me; how easily old habits are revived. I keep saying that I'm happy to know that I wont be working there long-term, but now I can't help but to wonder if that's merely b/c I want to run away from a re-occuring weakness in my life? Or is it merely b/c it's an area of temptation that I know I should be avoiding?
In other 'news', I had my last evening of volunteering at the ESL Centre this week, which also means that aside from all the paper work & reflections, I've completed yet another Field Ed Credit, and my TESOL-Observation Practicum. WOOOO WHOO!!!! Actually, I'm kinda sad that my time there is done for now, b/c I really enjoyed the expereience and the people.
Aside from all the above, it has been a rather slow and quite week. But that's alright!!!!...it's a VERY nice change from last week during which I felt sick throughout.
To end this posting, I do have a bit of a prayer request. In addition to needing yet another (sigh) 'Spiritual Awakening'...or perhaps mere motivation, I would also like to ask for continued prayer for my jaw. If you haven't already heard, my blog archives will detail the reality of my 'broken face.' No....I never broke it, but in many ways it's just as good as broken. Stupid TMJ (aka LockJaw)!!!! It has been 6 months already with no sustainable, positive changes. It's not only painful (Advil is a dear friend of mine), but it's really discouraging. God has given me a huge heart for music, and I love to sing...but I'm beginning to fear the reality that I may never be able to do so to the same capacity ever again. Yes I can still produce sound, but I can't move my mouth the way I should/want to. (Pain is the acceptable evil, I haven't let it stop me yet. But the physical restraints are starting to bogg me down. I just want to be pain free, and able to sing again with freedom. Please pray for healing!!!! A miracle..whatever the case may be. Also, after trying physio and a TMJ Specialist, my family and I are seriously considering seeing a chiropractor....something has got to work sooner than later ;)
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